Wandering Wonderings~ Nataleigh Robinson

Death, Pain, Anger, Humiliation

Why all of this complication?

Why must there be such devastation?

If God is a God of adoration

Then why is there such speculation?

I scream up to the sky

Begging for some kind of answer

But the heavens are silent

You refuse to speak

Refuse to let down an answer

I’ve done everything you’ve asked

But still you let this happen

In your love I basked

Now life’s all misshapen

Why can’t you just do what I first asked?

Then I hear your voice from up above:

“Have I not loved you with an everlasting love?

Did I not create you from the dust?

Did I not command that in me you trust?

Yet here you sit and fuss and fuss

Now I am reminded who is in charge

I know that his love is large

Though I do not always understand

He holds my life in his right hand

I will trust in him!

I know he treasures me

I know he values me

His love is beyond what I can see

But is it wrong for me to have these questions?

Is my anger a transgression?

Though his sight is better than mine

Though he sees my first and last

Though he knows things I cannot

Though he loves me a whole darn lot

Through all these things I can’t help questioning

Is it wrong to seek answers?

If so why do we think?

Is it wrong to be angry?

If so why do we feel?

Are these not gifts from God?

I think God must love our questions

Is he too big that he doesn’t care?

Or too small that he cannot listen?

Not at all! He can take it

I feel closer when I question

I will not be afraid to question

I will not be afraid to rant and rave

I will not be afraid to cast the blame

I will not be afraid to shout

My God is a big God!

Photograph property of Lilies Among Thorns Magazine. Photograph taken by Abby Whear.